I’ve briefly alluded to my time in 12 step before. There are lots of maxims one picks up in 12 step programs. Many I embrace whole heartedly, many others I struggle with daily.

Maxim: Keep your side of the street clean.

Translation: Try to behave as best you can and when you screw up, clean it up.

I have no problem with this one. I am forever fixing mistakes. Eventually I’ll run out of mistakes to make right?

Maxim: It is none of your business what other people think of you.

Translation: Mind your own business even when it’s about you.

Fuck me. This one slays me all the time. I want to be a 100 dollar bill and adored by every one. Bah

Maxim: If you find yourself shot, did you hand the shooter a loaded gun.

Translation: People might do sucky things to you, but don’t help them do it.

I frequently find myself handing people loaded guns. I know I should get out, or stop, or something but I go along because I want every one to adore me. And then something nasty happens and I have to take a long look and then admit to myself, I knew better. What’s worse is when occasionally, I see the moment I should pull the plug while it’s happening and I ignore it. Gibbs head slap myself.

Tell me I am not the only one…do share….